I've been asking God for what I want.
I pray for it every day;
It's hard when weeks go by,
And I still don't get my way.
Maybe I should just stop praying.
All I do is wait;
Why won't He give me what I want?
They say He's never late.
Am I asking for the wrong thing?
Is it just not His Will?
I guess He doesn't want me to have it...
Atleast that's how I feel.
How long must a person wait
Until they get what they've prayed?
It's been six weeks for me,
And I'm starting to feel dismayed.
Maybe I should ask for what He wants.
Maybe that's what I need to do;
Instead of just praying for what I want,
I'll ask what He wants too.
I asked God what He wanted,
But I didn't hear Him speak;
I've had nothing to write in this diary,
And it's been almost a week.
It's been a while since I wrote.
I started getting depressed;
My prayer wasn't answered,
And I couldn't hear God in my distress.
But one night, when I was crying,
I finally heard Him say;
"Give Me you,
And I'll give you what you pray."
So I started spending time with Him,
And gave Him all of me;
I didn't know why He wanted that,
But in time, I would see.
He showed me that I hurt Him
When I pushed Him away;
Then when I had a need,
I expected Him to come when I pray.
This diary is in my hands again
Because now I have something to write;
I don't want what I wanted anymore.
I found all I've ever wanted that night.
By Jennifer O'Connor